Ive kinda awlays thought bout how if I were to go to France, could I fit into the French society. THey all seem shigh end upper class, crepe eating people. I wanna live that life. But I wonder if the same thing that attracts me would attract them? I always wondered how some people are attracted to different things.
My brother is full Korean. He was adopted. He is totally into the Korean things, like swords, video games and wierd anime, and not just because he's a boy, but because he wants to live up to his Korean culture.
Me on the other hand am Italian, where I want to live up to some of my cultural standards but dont think i actually could.
i am so used to our society. i grew up with things that made me who i am. and i look at other cultures and just begin to think how do they surivive. i could never survive in mexico, africa, asia, i know i would have to be in a white culture. not that im racist or anything, cause im not. It just that i feel intimidated by other races.
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
Thursday, July 5, 2007
S P A C E
"I dont wanna talk right now, leave me alone"
Ive heard those words a lot. ANd those are deadly words to me. They are the trigger.
Its fine if someone doesnt wanna talk. But when someone says that, then i just wanna talk more and more. I cant control it.
THen it only makes it worse, and i feel like an idiot.
S
P
A
C
E
Take a sec to breathe
think bout whats going on
think bout what is happening with the other person
take a walk, eat some chocolate
COOL DOWN
How do you
Cool
D
O
W
N??
Cause when things get heated, words are said that are meant. the situation gets worse. its just a endless circle. But I wanna talk. You dont wanna talk. AN endless pull, but its best if really no one talks.
But why..
Why cant i just back the hell off when someone wants to be alone.
It seems easy, right. Leave me alone.
But to me its so complicated.
Im trying to back off when needed, but i cant change as fast as i want to, Im sorry, i really am trying. Ill learn the space and time helps...
(that was kinda random, but i had to get it off my chest---which by the way also helps free stress)
Ive heard those words a lot. ANd those are deadly words to me. They are the trigger.
Its fine if someone doesnt wanna talk. But when someone says that, then i just wanna talk more and more. I cant control it.
THen it only makes it worse, and i feel like an idiot.
S
P
A
C
E
Take a sec to breathe
think bout whats going on
think bout what is happening with the other person
take a walk, eat some chocolate
COOL DOWN
How do you
Cool
D
O
W
N??
Cause when things get heated, words are said that are meant. the situation gets worse. its just a endless circle. But I wanna talk. You dont wanna talk. AN endless pull, but its best if really no one talks.
But why..
Why cant i just back the hell off when someone wants to be alone.
It seems easy, right. Leave me alone.
But to me its so complicated.
Im trying to back off when needed, but i cant change as fast as i want to, Im sorry, i really am trying. Ill learn the space and time helps...
(that was kinda random, but i had to get it off my chest---which by the way also helps free stress)
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